'were' friend

yesterday i regret throw away a gold from its mine... today i realize that the gold is only a pebbles... and i realize more important thing, it's not what gold or pebbles you are... it is how you could stay at the right place and respect your owner, not just bugging to your owner to be come a princess, just take reality that i am just a miner !

jump from another hand to other hand would make you happy... even someday you find your perfect hand, you would be too old and you will come to the museum and no hand would take you by their side. You will feel so lonely and slowly down prepared to die. Then you will forgotten... like you are never exist before...

honestly i am talking about my self... i never realize who is my owner, till i forgotten and no body even remember me...

but i am not just talking about my self... it's someone... i am not his girlfriend, just his friends... even i did, no one knows... the world talks about how aggressive me, they are talking about how mad me...

sometimes i feel that how mad this world, why they blame me ? that's why tensho, i told you, DON'T BLAME ME IF SOMEDAY I MAKE U DOWN... because i don't want if someday tensho say that i am an evil... i am perfectly evil in his life... i don't wanna he say that to me...

i know it's over. i know it... i don't even wanna go back to that hell world...

i just... why you make me just like i am the one to blame ? while i write this note, my tears dropped, not because u left... but, why you make me just like your rival ?

you got new love, i do get one... then why you so cold to me ? i don't want you for my self... we were friends and i just want to say apologize... you know i never did that before...

just say that you forgive me, then i will leave...

isn't that so simple ?

my 'were' friend ?

or i have to face you and kneel to you ?